Not Fair!

You can't even make up your mind in my dreams. Wherever you were living I had moved there for a temporary job and was staying with you until I could find my own place. You had the day off - so you decided to have a party at your apartment and keep me up all night. I woke up eventually and let you have it. I told you off for many reasons. Called you selfish, egotistical, cold, and narcissistic. I don't remember what you said exactly, but you did apologize and you said that you didn't want to be in a relationship with me and gave me a hug.

Then for some reason I wasn't living there anymore, I was back here in the Midwest. I got a letter from you saying how much you missed me and I thought to myself - REALLY?! SERIOUSLY?!

And then I told you too effing bad.

Even in my dreams you can't make up your mind. And I REALLY hate that I couldn't get away from you even in my subconscious. It's not fair. And I'm going to keep going back to the HIMYM quote that you obviously aren't getting.

"I did what anybody with someone on the hook should do; I broke her heart."

On a separate note - you keep playing Buble's song "Just Haven't Met You Yet". Thats fine if you don't think you've met her yet... cause I'm still holding out hope that there has to be something better [however, I know that you could be the better - but you have to decide that you're the better and stop being an asshole to me... but I'm not holding out for that - its been 3 years now with no end in sight]. Here's the thing though - those girls that will put up with your bullshit and neuroses you won't want around; and the girls that are worth your time will figure out eventually to run in the other direction as fast and as far as they can.

I'm just saying.

You don't bother to take my feelings into account and to not fuck with my mind so I'm just returning the courtesies you've shown me.

I still hold true to what I told you before - you need to go see a therapist. Seriously. You have gone down such a dark and steep slope since I met you its absolutely ridiculous. I have no idea who you are, and I don't think you do either. You are so confused and unhappy it has consumed you. BE PROACTIVE! You know what used to make you happy. Get back there. You're so much more enjoyable when you're not being an asshole.